What bothers me is that you don’t feel like you have lost something precious. And what bothers me more is that i feel i didn’t do enough for us. Was it wrong of me to have expected more from you? Or was it the wrong things that i was expecting?
You have someone in your life who doesn’t let you go despite all the things you have done to her. So should i have stayed too? Should i have tried to explain how much it hurt me? Would you have understood?
You don’t miss me. That i am sure about. You would hardly text even when i was with you. Do you even remember me? Do you, for just a split second, regret what you did and that we are not talking anymore? Im afraid to answer this question because deep down i know the truth.
You dont miss me. You dont plan on texting me or calling me. I dont even cross your mind. You feel you are free of a huge burden. I wasn’t precious enough to be held on to. Your ego and your pride is way more important for you than anyone else. You chose them over me. I never felt like a part of your life. Just a random tree you would pass by. You would sit and enjoy the shade for a while but what you didn’t realise was it was willing to offer you more than just a covering from the sun.
You see the thing is, my absence wouldn’t bother you becuase i never occupied a major part in your life. You would still be happy without me, living in a bliss, while i ll be here hoping that maybe you ll realise, regret and comeback. But that wont ever happen. And this thought tears me apart, bit by bit, slowly and menacingly.
I want to move on. I want to stop thinking about you. I want to stop waiting for you by the road hoping that you come but you are never coming back. I want to end it. I dont want to give you anymore chances. I dont want to give you any more excuses because you don’t deserve it. You used up everything i had in store for you. Everything.
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