I never realized how close we are getting until I found I am willing sacrifice more for him than just my values and principles. The way we are moving forward and the intensity at which we feel the same is making the situation fragile. What I know is I cannot give him what he wants though he is willing to sacrifice, compromise, give up anything for me. The fact being, even though he is so special for me, I cannot give up on my identity which is my moral values and my principles. They are way too precious for me. It is what defines me and no one in this world deserve a partner who cannot love them enough to give up on certain things.
I have, after years, found something I really want to do. I have dreams, goals and aims for my family and I. Finally, I want to make a difference. This is not the time for me to indulge in something which has a high chances of crumbling down into pieces. The trajectory of our paths is doomed and the truth is, at an age like this, he is going to get hurt more than me and he knows that too. He is aware that things would end really bad for him, for us if we keep walking on the path. Even though I might not like the truth, but he has started creating distances and I am fine with it. This is how it should happen. I am not on a catch for boyfriend or a husband. I am on a catch for the clouds, the stars, the sun and the moon. I want to explore myself, understand what I want and what I don’t want, do things that make me happy and find my way into the world.
I have finally found freedom from a lot of things restrictions in my life and so I know the importance of living a life tailor made to my priorities. And right now I am my own priority.
Let me know your thoughts in the comments what you guys think. Your views are much appreciated. Thankyou!!!
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